ESmondo Force

First have to say Sorry for not bloggin... Kinda busy...

Second have to say Sorry for a long post again and being nasty to the ppl i goin to blog... And if u feel bad abt it, u dun have to read it...

U all may think that i am strong... I may look strong BUT I AM NOT!!! And this time i am not goin to act strong and lettin my emo feelin takin over me...

Well, the chapter begin by me knowin a person that i interested in... But i control myself by not rushin in to a r/s... Until one day i find myself turin interested to like the person... Yup... Today wakin up in the morning wif abit of courage, thinkin of how to dates the person out on Sun... But well i think i have to once again close back the door of my heart and stop thinkin...

Why must it be U again... For the second time doin this to me... Seriously i dunno how am i goin to treat u in future... U, the person that i trusted most, tellin U almost everything... And yet once again being hurt by U... Still remember the reason u turn me down when i have feelin for u? Now 2 of them that u took away is YOUNGER den me... This hurt twice as painful as last time.. And 'THANKS' for Hurtin me 2 times wif the same methods...

The arrow that u have shoot have so accurately enter the small openin that my heart have open and hurt me so deeply without any warning...

Can anyone jus make me drunk so that i can cry wif at least a reason? I hate the feelin of heart achin and yet cant cry out... ARHH!!!